Lockdown 2020 and on

Today started off fine with my session with my counsellor. She has such a calm voice and appears totally unflappable ; out next session in 2 weeks time is our last - but I should have started in the woods by then so hopefully I will cope better than I expected to at first! The next appointment was for Mikey to have a filling done. We had calmly talked through what was going to happen; how it will not hurt and it is all for the best as this is an adult tooth that he will need for a very long time. As we went in he was fine, but by the time we got into the surgery all that changed. He had a full blown melt down complete with crying and screaming. Trying to calm him down was not going to happen and the Dentist also tried, he was reassured that there would be no needles and it would not hurt...but that just led to more crying and it was real tears, not the normal fake crying he is so good at. It has been decided that the fillings will be done under sedation and all he had done was more x r

 Woke up feeling decidedly rough this morning, just about made it to the bathroom and I'm now avoiding eating and I'm living on Ginger Ale trying to settle my stomach. Poor Mikey has asked to go out and get some sweets, but I'm so dizzy and feel so sick I just can't face going anywhere (plus I'm still waiting for my new bank card!) Mikey is currently getting as much x box time as he can because they will be separated from tomorrow...I'm still worried there will be tears in the morning when it really hits him that it will not be at school with him!! To be honest I just want to relax for the first time since March...

 Today is the end of August and we are getting Mikey ready to finally go back to school on Wednesday. As a sort of final outing we headed to Dover Castle on Saturday. For once we were prepared and had  booked in advance (as required)  Once we had arrived (with me driving!!) we had a small queue while they checked everyone had booked and turned around everyone who hadn't! Then we got to part in the castle (but not as close as the disabled parking - I still had to get up a largish hill!!) Then it was masks on and into the castle.  I was amazed/annoyed at the sheer number of people who either have decided they don't have to wear a mask or are unable to wear it correctly. The number of people of the BAME who were not wearing one or had their noses or nose and mouth uncovered was, to be honest, quite terrifying. As someone who has done as asked and has shielded since March I felt far too vunerable and at risk while walking around, although it was nice that it wasn't crowded even