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Fatigued...

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Sorry for the lack of content, but I seem to have moved to the totally knackered part of this F@~*ing disease now. This means I am pretty much totally exhausted from opening my eyes in the morning until I try to close them again at night - and that is usually the point my brain goes 'Oh! It's insomnia time!!' and off I go into the early hours when I hopefully pass out! Not much has actually been happening around here, Mikey is safely back at school and is trying to get his head around the idea that he is going to have to work this year! He is also back to his usual thoughts about homework...so the slamming of my head against various walls had commenced again! At least lockdown did give me a few months off after Mikey and I had agreed a truce!!Andy is still working from home as his office has been claimed for some sort of project. He had agreed to go back 1 day a week, but I think Boris heard and has decided to put a stop to that! So it is watch this space to see what is de…

Pained...

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I was very good today and headed to my GP to get stabbed. I had originally intended to go on to the Hospital to have some blood tests done.While I was in with the nurse I double checked that the tests would be OK after the Pneumococcal Vaccine, she told me that they are no longer operating the ticket system and I would now have to Book an appointment with them. So I drove home and the tests are now being done at 1pm on Wednesday! The only good point was she didn't think I was her patient as I didn't look old enough!! I did assure her that I felt more than old enough!Since getting home I now have a headache from hell and a sore throat plus feeling even more sick than usual. When I stand up I actually feel lopsided and everything is whizzing around my head - if I'd had a couple of glasses of wine I wouldn't mind - but I have not had a drink since my birthday 😞 My one idea is to have an early night and let pillows hold my head up for me. I think a playlist and a good boo…

Not a day I want to repeat ...

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Today started off fine with my session with my counsellor. She has such a calm voice and appears totally unflappable ; out next session in 2 weeks time is our last - but I should have started in the woods by then so hopefully I will cope better than I expected to at first!The next appointment was for Mikey to have a filling done. We had calmly talked through what was going to happen; how it will not hurt and it is all for the best as this is an adult tooth that he will need for a very long time. As we went in he was fine, but by the time we got into the surgery all that changed. He had a full blown melt down complete with crying and screaming. Trying to calm him down was not going to happen and the Dentist also tried, he was reassured that there would be no needles and it would not hurt...but that just led to more crying and it was real tears, not the normal fake crying he is so good at. It has been decided that the fillings will be done under sedation and all he had done was more x r…

Enough

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Woke up feeling decidedly rough this morning, just about made it to the bathroom and I'm now avoiding eating and I'm living on Ginger Ale trying to settle my stomach. Poor Mikey has asked to go out and get some sweets, but I'm so dizzy and feel so sick I just can't face going anywhere (plus I'm still waiting for my new bank card!)Mikey is currently getting as much x box time as he can because they will be separated from tomorrow...I'm still worried there will be tears in the morning when it really hits him that it will not be at school with him!! To be honest I just want to relax for the first time since March...

The End...

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Today is the end of August and we are getting Mikey ready to finally go back to school on Wednesday.As a sort of final outing we headed to Dover Castle on Saturday. For once we were prepared and had  booked in advance (as required)  Once we had arrived (with me driving!!) we had a small queue while they checked everyone had booked and turned around everyone who hadn't! Then we got to part in the castle (but not as close as the disabled parking - I still had to get up a largish hill!!) Then it was masks on and into the castle.  I was amazed/annoyed at the sheer number of people who either have decided they don't have to wear a mask or are unable to wear it correctly. The number of people of the BAME who were not wearing one or had their noses or nose and mouth uncovered was, to be honest, quite terrifying. As someone who has done as asked and has shielded since March I felt far too vunerable and at risk while walking around, although it was nice that it wasn't crowded even…

Psycho Bitch Dragon Queen

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I originally wrote this last night before dissolving into tears which Andy then had to calm down so I could not fall asleep...For those who don't know, the title refers to my bitch of a mother in law. She is the reason I left Andy last year and I am fed up with her now using my son to express her displeasure as she is unable to be an adult and speak to me. To be honest I think and feel she jsut wants me to die so she can try to sink her claws back into Andy (I've only spent 19 years trying to detach him) and Mikey. She already has her younger som living back at home - and teh stupid fool is now under her and his step mothers thumbs and appears to be unable to think or act for himself. There is no way he is going to settle with anyone, (male or female) when they are going to meet her...any sensible person will run a mile in self preservation after the first 5 minutes - or sooner. The fact a 50 year old man is living with his mother and her boyfriend will make finding a new par…

All Change

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Today was tough for me, we went to look at a potential school for Mikey to move on to next year! It doesn't feel that long since we were looking at choosing a Primary School for him, how on earth can it be time to pick the location for the rest of his education up to 18?Today was Lenham school, technically a Maidstone school; which does appeal to Mum as she was a Maidstone pupil in the dim and distant past! Mikey was initially not impressed with how long it took to get there! He is used to his school just being across the road, but as I have jsut discussed with Andy, he is growing up fast and I'm sure he will adjust quickly! I guess we will need to get him a phone next summer as well...or at least one that can be used!!The weather was not exactly school tour friendly! But hopefully we didn't resemble drowned rats too closely! I have found I have automatic windscreen wipers - NB don't press the stalk down as that turns it on and off rather than just doing a quick swipe…