Lockdown 2020 and on

 Well we have arrived at another Friday! Mikey is worried that School starts on Monday (Just a week early) and he wants to 'do' something this weekend! He really has not grasped this Lockdown thing!! To be honest I would love to go somewhere....anywhere!! But nowhere is open yet and I think the Egg Machine would run out of attraction for Mikey pretty quickly! Half of me is tempted to head to a wood with a camera - but again Mikey would really not be overly impressed! I am pleased he will be returning to school soon. I have noticed that he is getting far to comfortable with just his company and I am getting fed up with trying to extract him from his bedroom. Another reason I need a dog - I could just send it into his pit to pull him out! Much healthier for me!! I am coming up with some really good reasons to have another furry kid....plus it would be such a special 50th Birthday gift after the hell of the last few years.... Preferably a Norbert!!! My sleep is getting better - fa

 Another tough day. You would think I would be used to them by now!! Yesterday I ate a digestive biscuit during the morning and then spent the next couple of hours concentrating on not throwing up...Not fun, so for lunch I went bland; cream crackers and butter! They seemed to help, but if I'm honest eating is getting more and more difficult. I can't taste anything, or it all just tastes foul. Why would I want to put anything in my mouth if it tastes that disgusting? On a plus side I am sleeping better 😀 but I wake up feeling as exhausted as when I went to bed the night before. It also means my brain wakes me far to easily to think. Recently it has been mostly thinking about things I really wanted to do, but haven't and there is now no way I can achieve them. Doesn't help my mindset to feel written off even before I hit 50. But unless timetravel is sorted out there is absolutely no way I can do what I wanted. Or I need a major medical miracle within the next few months!

Yesterday was a decidedly tough day for me, full of old memories resurfacing plus a load of flashbacks to 2008 and the rest of the year where I was fighting to get back to work. To be honest most of the blocks were put in by work which really did not help me in the slightest.  I feel that most of this was caused by me starting to worry about my return to Canterbury to have these (or this) stone lasered out. When the last one was removed I was meant to be in for day surgery, I got out after 3 I think - my memory is not exactly working... Some of the memories that resurfaced were not bad, and were much older than those from 2008! My wonderful brain pretty much decided that the 21st February was Thinking Day (It is actually the 22nd....) and memories from when I was a Brownie, Guide and Young Leader popped up! Going back to Brownies Thinking Day was mainly collecting and cleaning pennies from what I recall! Loads of shiny pennies being put on lines in the school hall and then sent off to