Lockdown 2020 and on

 Finally starting to feel a tad more human now so I went back to March Wood today. The woods always make me feel so much better and just being there helps me feel so much more grounded and relaxed for once. While I was there today we make daisy balm, mine are scented with Lavender and Eucalyptus so hopefully the lavender might help me sleep....(well I can dream!) We also did some tie dyeing with flower and vegetable dyes...Mine is still drying but I was quite proud of it! I remembered from out attempt to do this when I was at Middle School that it needed to be tied tightly! Getting the tie off was a challenge, but I was happy with it! Once Mikey was home from School, he headed to the park so Andy and I headed off to exercise out democratic vote...I had a discussion on the way home about voting - but having studied politics for 2 years I had it drummed into me that if I don't vote I have no right to moan about the result as I was not part of making that decision! Mrs Risdell-Smith c

Recently it appears that my brain has been reconnecting parts which were damaged in 2008 when I had my stroke. My 3 nights with very  little sleep have resulted in lots of memories of our wedding flooding back - unfortunately not the nice ones; but mostly things which I would love to forget so I guess it is time for another stroke. My main recollection is being asked be guests invited by my family why my new mother in law looked so upset and grumpy...Not really a question you want on the day you get married. I was already not happy as she was wearing the same colour as me, but my German friend asked why she looked so upset and close to tears. I suppose I should have said because her son has married me, but at that point I was still hoping for a normal type relationship, even after I had learned how often I was going to have to lie or simply not tell her things as she wasn't able to cope. This started at our engagement party which, to be honest, was her party and not ours. I was not