Lockdown 2; The End

We are officially out of lockdown, but as Kent has been pushed into Tier 3, the highest and since lockdown has ended our figures have continued to increase. Swale now has the highest figures in the country, Medway is not far behind and currently Thanet is 4th... My main aim right now is to keep out of hospital as much as I can. I'm still classed as extremely clinically vunerable  and I think I'm no. 4 on the list of groups to get vaccinated. My only bad thought about that is why does it have to be 2 injections?? Why on earth can't they get it in one for those of us not fond of needles? 

My other problem at the moment is my lack of memories...I was watching the Repair Shop earlier and a woman was talking about how the sound of a clock and the memories it brings back of her childhood. However hard I try I can't think of a single noise that makes me think of my childhood...in fact the harder I try to think the less I can actually remember at all. I hate having these huge blank spots in my memory, and I am rapidly losing the people who could remind me. It really feels more as though the people who are left won't understand or share the urgency or importance of this, I'll just be told to stop looking backwards and move on. I just wish they could understand how much the blanks actually hurt me...

I'm also still feeling very isolated. There are very few people in this town I can talk to and none I can spend time with as, basically, I am still shielding until I am protected by the vaccine - but that will not be until 2021. As Medways figures are so high there is no way I can go to see Mum, so I guess I'm just stuck in the house. I am totally exhausted and feel run down so going for a walk is the last thing I want to do on my own... really why I just want a small dog as the cats are still avoiding me during the day and Misty is fed up with me crying into her fur.

The other disadvantage of feeling so run down is I feel overwhelmed and completely over emotional. Not fair on Mikey and Andy. All I really want to do is curl up and sleep. Reading is not easy as I have broken one of the arms of my glasses and my spare pair are not strong enough. At the moment they are mended with sellotape, but they are not feeling secure to say the least.

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