Lockdown 3; Day 74

 I think I've just about got over Mondays escapade...I have discovered that to start my complaint I need to talk to PALs so maybe Monday for that. I got round to calling my GP again on Friday; I don't think the receptionist liked me when I refused to accept being called by a nurse and I finally got a call from a Dr just after 3. Her immediate reaction was that she couldn't give me anything stronger so I referred her to a letter from my consultant last year. Thankfully she eventually agreed with me and I picked up my painkillers this morning. Driving was a little challenging for me, but I got there and back without changing the normal shape of my car!!

One thing I am going to have to do over the next week is record my blood pressure and it is getting rather high right now. The Dr I spoke to is hoping it si simply due to the pain I have been in, but when I add in he stress of sorting Mikey's next school and how totally useless I feel I think there may be a little more. To be honest. at the moment the idea of a coma for 2 weeks again does sound rather appealing... But I have a feeling Andy and Mikey would be liable to kill each other while I was out!

I'm still trying to convince Andy that we need a dog, I really wish that I could convince him that a small dog will not try to eat him. I also think a dog would be so good for Mikey, I relied on my dog during my teen years, she understood me far more that I believed my parents did. She slept on my bed and was such a good listener for all my problems that I thought were only experienced by me and nobody else.

Right now I am feeling even more isolated and everything I do is leaving me totally exhausted. I am so fed up with feeling such a waste of space and useless...Mikey and Andy would hardly miss me and would probably get on much better with me not in the way.

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