Lockdown 2020 and on

 Yesterday I was exhausted by the time I went to bed...I was hoping to be asleep really quickly again! Wonderful plan but someone had other ideas and I was wide awake for hours. This is crazy, all I want is to pass out for a few days and wake up feeling slightly normal - whatever that feels like as I really don't remember. Today started with a call from Urology at KCH...can I be there for a referral appointment tomorrow morning? I really wasn't sure so she said she would call back in 10 minutes while I sorted out child care! A quick call to Andy and he said they would both come with me and invade the carpark! So I waited for my call back.... an hour later it came and I have to go to the Urology Suite next to Clarke ward with a list of my meds and yet another urine test....but I can produce that once I get there! While I was waiting for my call my GP called and asked if I could go to Tunbridge Wells tomorrow for an Ultra Sound scan! My immediate response was no which threw her a...

 This has been quite a week! Last weekend I saw an emergency GP as I was still feeling so rough, and my urine was still showing an infection so I was given stronger pain killers, more antibiotics and anti sickness drugs (which do nothing at all) on Wednesday I was feeling even worse so called 111 who sent an ambulance due to the possibility of sepsis! The ambulance did all the sepsis checks and decided I was fine, but phoned my GP to ensure they were going to check up on me...on Dr called me that night having agreed with the paramedic he was going to call on Friday! He agreed during that call that he would call again on Friday; but on Thursday morning the Dr I had spoken too before called me and said I needed to go straight to A&E! Andy was about to go into work so he changed all his plans and got cover for what he was going to do! I was dropped off at A&E, but nobody was allowed to stay with me once I had passed the covid checks...so I got to wave goodbye through the windo...

 Today I have really had enough. I'm still feeling awful, the pain is increasing and the antibiotics really do not seem to be working. Add in that Mikey is still being bullied at school and I really wish he hadn't listened to me and had fought back; but for once he listened and hasn't flattened the little toe rag but I also don't think he managed to win the house captain vote. But I am worried he will take that out on Mikey. They are also working on 1000 hours of Kindness at school (well, Toby obviously isn't) and are meant to be completing a passport to hand in after the break. Mikey has not been given one and even though he has told his teacher several times still has not got one. I know it is not important in the big scheme of things but he feels that he is not being included as a member of the class, and no child wants to feel excluded... I'm also concerned about the amount of homework that has been sent home. With everything they are not going to get much o...

 Today has been a really strong Deja Vu sort of Day. This time last year I was given a 3 day course of Antibiotics to kill off a UTI which had started off. The 3 days achieved exactly nothing and the emergency GP gave me another 3 days in November. By mid December I was feeling extremely yucky and went in and saw the practice nurse who sent me straight into Hospital. My UTI was actually e-coli and I needed fluids and IV antibiotics, after a few days of pretty much constant IVs most of my veins had blown and I was going out of my brain with boredom! I also discovered that there were loads of staff in over Christmas, but unfortunately none of them could cook! I also had my dramatic time when I spread loads of blood over the floor and my bed in the early hours of Christmas Morning 😡. My biggest woe was missing seeing Mikey opening his presents; I am going to do my best to be around to see that this year - but if my 7 day course doesn't work or my pain increases I have to head into A...

 I appear to have turned everything upside down at the moment. Poor Andy is unable to use his cpap machine as it keeps beeping all night, so hasn't really worn it this year. He has also mastered snoring loudly with his mouth shut! Just after midnight I gave up as I really couldn't take anymore so relocated to the sofa/ Misty joined me for a while but then got bored with sleep so buggered off...at that point Rory took her place next to me and started snoring as well. I did debate moving out to the car, but decided that as 4c it was far too cold - plus knowing me I'd set the alarm off and wake everyone else up! I finished off my latest Netflix series, got angry as they are not making a 2nd series and it really didn't answer anything 😢 So I moved onto re-watching Call the Midwife from the beginning again!  I kept spotting actors I knew who I had totally forgotten were in it! By 6am I was cold so went back to bed...Andy woke me up at 3pm to make sure I was still alive! App...

 Just seen the Tory Political Broadcast and I'm thinking about who I am meant to have missed having contact with this year. I did really miss my Mum during Lockdown, but I got to talk to her as much as I could and I have seen her since things relaxed. As my family by marriage are still praying for my death and not speaking to me, I haven't missed those members of my alleged family at all. The problems last year were caused/created by my in-laws, but it is still all my fault. Well to really piss them off Lockdown has meant Andy and I are closer together than we have been for years. I am also determined to be around for as long as I can for both Andy and Mikey...they are MY FAMILY, and not anyone elses.

 Today did not start well as I could not get to sleep last night. When I did managed to fall asleep the poxy cat jumped on me and woke me up. Nobody cared even though I did wake Andy up to tell him... Mikey has come home from school apparently quite happy! We have had a look at the Wye School virtual tour, he likes it (as so I!!) and we are booked in for a tour of Towers during half term. He is off to The North with Andy this week I believe so we are then in a position to make a decision with as much info as we can get in this climate of Covid 19. I'm feeling happier that we have looked as safely as possible as this decision will be possibly for the next 7 years... I have only managed to have lunch in the last hour or so (it is now nearly 5pm!!) and British Gas have been to service the old boiler! Plus I managed to remember what the question was that Andy wanted to ask, and I've remembered the answer!! Wow, I am on a roll today!! One think I do remember from last night when I d...