Lockdown 2020 and on

 Yet again it has been proved to me that I was not cut out to be a teacher. So far no work has been set by school so I decided that it was a good chance to start on the infamous homework trail. Unfortunately Mikey does not agree with my decision and has retired to his bedroom! We are not helped by the fact he is not meant to get close to me at all and Andy is still working from home so is busy! (Although at the moment he is sorting out my printing issues!!)  I have also have an interview with a research student today about how CKD patients have felt during the pandemic. It was actually nice that someone was aware that we have been affected due to out health - both physical and mental, I just hope I can read her paper once she has finished and handed it in! My knitting project is currently on hold as I can cast on but then seem to hit a complete block and end up destroying what I'm doing!! I'm hoping a break my reset my brain and let me carry on with my square production - alth...

 I have just had to go and pick Mikey up from School as a child within his bubble has tested positive for covid. Good old Mikey fist bumped him at school when he was in yesterday so he is at risk, bless him!! I hadn't realised how cold it is out there and as usual Mikey was one of the last kids out! But thankfully I had permission to leave the way I went in - the alternative was to walk out of the main entrance and then back to where I had left the car! But Miss Talbot said I didn't have to do that and we were back and leaving before we saw the kids who came out before Mikey coming back to the car park!  I have checked the school website and no work has been set yet - and Mikey is positive no work is expected to be done today. I also warned the Head it is  not likely that much will get done! Mikey is most excited that he doesn't have to wear his uniform again until January... The main local news is that the vaccine has arrived at William Harvey and innoculation has commen...

We are officially out of lockdown, but as Kent has been pushed into Tier 3, the highest and since lockdown has ended our figures have continued to increase. Swale now has the highest figures in the country, Medway is not far behind and currently Thanet is 4th... My main aim right now is to keep out of hospital as much as I can. I'm still classed as extremely clinically vunerable  and I think I'm no. 4 on the list of groups to get vaccinated. My only bad thought about that is why does it have to be 2 injections?? Why on earth can't they get it in one for those of us not fond of needles?  My other problem at the moment is my lack of memories...I was watching the Repair Shop earlier and a woman was talking about how the sound of a clock and the memories it brings back of her childhood. However hard I try I can't think of a single noise that makes me think of my childhood...in fact the harder I try to think the less I can actually remember at all. I hate having these huge b...

I am mostly getting angry with myself now. I am seriously struggling and I can't see or think of any way out of this. This morning has been nice, Andy and I went back to Dobbies and now have twinkly coloured lights in the front window. Although I prefer white, it is only fair to let Andy have coloured ones as he lives here too. We also got Mikey some battery operated lights to go into his room; I can only think his mothers love of bling has influenced him on a genetic basis! We also got 2 robin ornaments for the tree to represent both Grandads. I have always loved Robins and the current thinking that they are filled with the spirits of past loved ones is one I am happy to believe and continue. I know I am overly emotional at the moment, but for some reason it just feels right. For some unknown reason I am meant to be emotional at the moment and not bottle it up, I have spent too many years trying to be whatever others have wanted or expected me to be rather than being who I am. If ...

 Once more my brain has been thinking far too much. The South East has been stuck into Tier 3 so pretty much still in Lockdown, my brain has refound memories that I would much rather not remember as they all are around the bitch known as my mother in law. If I had mentioned what I have now recalled to my Dad he would have turned the car around on the way to the wedding and my history would be decidedly different. I would not be living miserably in East Kent for a start. Right now I live in a town where all relatives just want me dead or living away from my son and husband. How can a mother expect em to abandon my son to her tender loving care when I have seen what sort of mess she has made of ruining the lives of both of her sons. I also assume it is thanks to her care that I only have one child as my husband chose not to get close eo me for years, leaving me feeling isolated and unwanted by anyone as I was so isolated in a town where I knew nobody. I can honestly say that for the ...

As this current chaotic pandemic is starting to look as though it is going to last for months rather than days I've been looking for the things that make me happier! In the past I admit I have been slightly addicted to Smooth Radio as it is very 'light' music and pretty relaxing. I was also slightly fond of Encore whilst it was on DAB! Earlier this year it stopped altogether and I discovered Magic at the Musicals. Thanks to Alexa I can just ask for it and I can settle in bed and listen to a range of songs from Shows I have either loved or really want to see! I have now also discovered some new shows that are being added to my list! Unfortunately Andy doesn't really get any choice in radio stations, ut he hasn't moaned to much so far; and he should be grateful that I'm not trying to sing!! I have also enjoyed getting to spend more time with Andy; if anything else this pandemic has let me get closer to me little family than I have been for years. And as we are get...

Amazingly I am still behaving and avoiding everyone!! I have not left the house and gone anywhere for most of November. Right now I'm getting to know very grumbly kidneys but trying to avoid painkillers as the ones I have do have a pretty nasty side effect which doesn't leave me feeling at all comfortable! |Today for lunch I took to easy option and just stuck some part bake rolls in the oven. Mikey declared recently that he doesn't like these any more so Andy and I shared them. By the time I gad eaten 1 his Imperial highness appeared and changed his declaration as he was 'only joking' and my lunch disappeared very quickly....and not into me!! Unfortunately I am having a munchy day and the bag of frazzles I was allowed to eat did not fill me up 😕  I have already decided what dinner is...wonder if Andy wants it early!! Sleep is still proving problematic to say the least. I know I am exhausted and I need a few weeks worth of sleep, but once up stairs it just doesn...