Freedom, Day 6

An exciting day!! I got a call quite early this morning when I was waiting for the GP to call me from the dealership to tell me that my cat was ready for me to pick up! So a quick COV done with Hastings and I dragged Mikey off at 1.30 to collect it....driving home was easier than I expected, although I did keep trying to move the gear stick! But I was wonderfully amazed by how smooth the drive was. I test drove an automatic several years ago and hated it; the car seemed to jerk whenever it changed gear, this I only noticed when the gear number changed on the screen! The biggest issue was working out how to move the gear stick! Once I'm used to it I need to test what the sport mode is like!! Mikey and I got it started with no problems, and once I worked out how to move it into D from N driving was lovely! Even with the sniff monster sniffing loudly from the back!

I'm currently watching a documentary about Covid, Andy came home to find me crying . I know it is silly, but I still feel guilty that, amazingly, I have not lost anyone I love to this disease. But having watched this I am amazed that everyone has got through this so far. I am also only too aware that this danger has not ended and could get worse again. Plus even the medical experts said they were guessing and could not predict  what effect the virus could have in the long term, on any part of the human body. So many patients have ended up on dialysis I don't want to test it. My heart and kidneys are already a mess and my immune system will not cope/deal with anything more.

Andy has a week off next week, hopefully we are having a trip to Wingham Wildlife Park. I have mentioned it to Mikey who is more than up for it! My plan is to take loads of photos and build up some new memories for the 3 of us as a family. Most of my memories from this year are based around hospitals and I need to change this! The last thing I want for Mikey is his memories to be of me in a hospital ward. I want us to have fun together, do daft things and just have fun, laughing together, eating ice cream etc And I am going to make sure there are lots of photos to look back on!! I might even appear in some of them for once!


Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

How Do I keep Going?

 This week I have totally reached the end of my very frayed tether. I am more exhausted than I have felt for months and I am also feeling isolated, un-needed and unwanted. |Mikey is settled at school, is doing well and making new friends and finding new interests. All I do it listen while he frantically searched for reasons for him feeling f=depressed. When he does come up with something you can guarantee that there is nothing I can do to cure or solve whatever he is worrying about. He also has new people he can talk to so I am certainly no longer needed. I've also had my latest lot of blood tests done. I can't remember my access thing for my results so I can't look at them. My memory is failing even more than usual and I hate this. I'm also in constant pain and I can't do anything that is part of my usual way of living. I really just want all this to end. I have no energy, I can't sleep and even cooking something simple leaves me feeling dead on my feet. All I ...
Read more

Lockdown, Day 73

Image
The whole world appears to be going mad - and not over Covid 19 for once, but over the death of a man called George Floyd. Any death is one death to many, but the Americans do seem to be reacting and using this death as an excuse. The riots in various US cities are causing Millions of Dollars in damage (physical and mental) whilst the mobs, which seem to have a high number of white member scream for the blood of a policeman who probably felt he was working within the orders he has been given. Personally I feel they should be yelling at the Orange Idiot they elected 4 years ago. I vaguely remember his administration having a few black faces at the start, but recently it is decidedly WASP and black faces are totally out of sight. He has also threatened to send the army in to deal with the rioters...I am unable to remember any other US President using the military to quash a public uprising in the past. Is it wrong for me to hope that the people of the United States may remember all of th...
Read more

When will all this end?

The UK appears to be in total meltdown abd I have had enough. Petrol is now been panic bought - at least it makes a change from toilet roll.  Mikey's school start was delayed until 10am this morning as Hythe Road was at a standstill = he missed PE but was playing benchball instead - but the advantage was he didn't have to get changed! By the end of today Stagecoach were not even trying to get near school - thankfully Andy got close and picked him up = the thought of Mikey finding the station and getting on the right bus is terrifying! He could have ended up anywhere!! While the general population are acting line brain dead zombies I am trying not to move too much as the infamous calcified blood clot (which doesn't cause any pain...) is absolutely killing me. I am seriously considering having a hot water bottle tonight in an attempt to ease the pain. I chickened out of my afternoon in the woods as I wasn't sure my back would hold out. I'm really not good with pain.
Read more